Praise the Lord

Praise the Lord

My favourite way to start the day is when I manage to get up early, go outside and have some time just me and God. Go for a walk, a run, a swim – whatever. Just enjoy being out in the cool morning air, hear the birds chirp and maybe even watch the sunrise. When I was in Ulm two weeks ago I did just that – one morning I jumped in the Danube and another I cycled up a hill to the Wilhelmsburg, an old fortification with a tower that offers a great view of the city.
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And the sun was just rising as I reached the top – it was beautiful. I had my Bible with me and randomly opened it at Psalm 113 – and it couldn’t have been more fitting!

Praise the Lord.
Praise, O servants of the Lord, praise the name of the Lord.
Let the name of the Lord be praised, both now and for evermore.
From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the Lord is to be praised.

The Lord is exalted over all the nations, his glory above the heavens.
Who is like the Lord our God, the One who sits enthroned on high,
who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth?

He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes, with the princes of their people.
He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children.

Praise the Lord. (Psalm 113 NIV translation, emphasis added)

It is truly good to praise God! It is the best way to start the day and the best way to finish the day. No matter what is going on, there is always reason to praise God because HE is good. Because He is just. Because his love never fails. His mercy is new every morning.

I was so happy that morning – happy for the sunrise, happy to be cycling, happy to spot a hot air balloon in the sky. Happy because it was the day we were making parathas for breakfast and going climbing. Seemed like the perfect start to a perfect day. And I thanked God for it. But even though in every day life I don’t always take the time to go out first thing in the morning – either because I’m too lazy or because I feel like I have too much stuff to get done…I realise that taking time to at least thank God for a new day and recognising how much I have to be grateful for also contributes to cultivating a positive heart attitude, changes my perspective and automatically makes my day better as I am reminded of God’s goodness in the big and little things.

So here are some things I want to praise God for this week:

  • Last weekend we had a leadership retreat from my church and it was so encouraging to spend time together, read the Bible, pray for eachother.
  • We were in Breisach, right next to the Rhine river – and again I managed to go for an early morning and evening walk and enjoy the beauty of the moment. (I had to skip the slackline for three days – didn’t have one there! Really noticed it on Monday…)
  • Work was good last week, I enjoyed the tours with my tourists and had good weather, a friendly group, not too much traffic – and generous tips 🙂
  • I found out when my last exam is going to be (mid November) and have three more weeks to study than I expected 🙂
  • I found out a friend from church actually goes rock climbing and we went climbing last week which was pretty cool – hope to go again these next weeks, so climbing partner prayer answered 🙂
  • I’m doing some teaching at a discipleship school these next few weeks and am excited and encouraged to see God at work in the students’ lives
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Praise the Lord from the rising of the sun…
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to the place where it sets. (Rhine river, Breisach)

I do

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Two simple words that can be used in so many different situations to mean many different things:

I do like strawberry ice cream
– just prefer chocolate.
I don’t know what to do.
I do love a good prank.

But said together, just the two words, the picture that comes to mind is a wedding scene: the wedding vows. Will you, Mr. Charming take this woman, Ms. Beautiful to be your lawfully wedded wife? To love and to cherish her, honour and keep her…for as long as you both shall live? Such a beautiful moment. I was recently at a wedding and kind of touched by the personalised vows the couple had written for each other. Especially the husband expressing his heart was so beautiful and somehow surprising to witness. He really really seemed to mean it. He was truly in love. I felt so happy for my friend.

But what do these two words mean?
I do. I do promise to love and to cherish this other person.
This Mr. Charming – who will undoubtedly not always be charming.
This Ms. Beautiful – who will not always look or act beautifully.
I do. I do promise to be there for him, for her – in the good times and the bad. Until death do us part.
I do. I am not taking this step lightly, I am trusting in God to help us both and want HIS perfect love and forgiveness to be the foundation of our relationship and marriage.
I do.
In German the phrase goes: Ja, mit Gottes Hilfe.
Yes, with the Lord’s help. With God’s help.

Can we not love without assistance? Why does God need to play a role in our marriage? Isn’t He like a third wheel? An intruder? A cause for strife and jealousy? Why include God?
Because He is the author of marriage – and the creator of both the husband and the wife.
And HE is the first love. The first Husband.

In my post Unfaithful love  I already wrote about how in the Bible, God’s relationship to us is compared to the relationship of husband and wife – and how often there is unfaithfulness on our side. On my side. But what does it mean that God is my husband? Why does God use that comparison? Why is marriage such a perfect and beautiful illustration for God’s perfect love?

Because God’s love is a love that seeks the good of the other person. A love willing to sacrifice. A love like the love described in 1. Corinthians 13: patient, kind, humble, not envious, not proud, not self-seeking. Keeps no record of wrongs. Does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Always protects, always hopes, always perseveres. God’s love never fails. That is how GOD loves. And that is HIS DESIGN for marriage. He longs for us to love each other with the same pure, joyful, selfless and generous love that HE has for us. Imagine if all marriages had that kind of love? There would be no room for pride, for manipulation, for unforgiveness and bitterness. It would be a truly joyful and love-filled marriage. That is God’s heart for ALL marriages. He wants us to first experience HIS love – to understand what the love of a husband means for God. HIS heart. To really feel that love that is unconditional. And to take that love into our marriage. To let the unconditional love of God empower us to love our spouse unconditionally too. To love in the good times and the bad. To forgive and ask for forgiveness, even if it is humbling. To admit mistakes. To encourage and build up. To seek the best for the other person. To keep no record of wrongs. To always hope and trust and persevere. So that our love never fails and our marriage becomes strong.

But God first. God is wooing for my heart. God is lavishing his love and attention on me. God’s heart is like that of an expectant bridegroom – eagerly awaiting his bride!
He is so proud, so happy, so thrilled to see me walk towards him!
The king is enthralled by my beauty!
And he asks me – will you say ‘I do’?
Will you commit to this journey with me?
Will you commit to trusting me?
Will you commit to loving me?
Will you commit to getting to know me more every day?
Will you commit to protecting our relationship
and putting it above all else?
Will you commit to being faithful to me?
Will you commit to opening your heart to me?
Will you commit to letting me into your life?
Will you commit to not hiding anything from me?
Will you commit to not trying to cheat me?
Will you commit to staying, even when doubts arise?
Will you commit to fighting for us, for this relationship?
Will you commit to letting me help you?
Will you commit to letting me protect you?
Will you commit to letting me love you?

And with my heart beating faster than normal and my eyes moist and a joyous smile on my face I realise, wow, he really really loves me. And without hesitation I say ‘I do’.
Yes God, I say yes to you.

Whether you are married or single, God wants to be the first love in your life.
As a married person, if both husband and wife love God first – it is the best thing you can do to grow in your love as a couple, because God would never separate you. He loves marriage. Honestly. Get this: God LOVES marriage. He LOVES when husband and wife become ONE. He LOVES when husband and wife do daily life together. Cook. Eat. Work. Sleep together. Make love. Dance around. Sing off tune. Argue and work it out. Build marriage. Because marriage HONOURS God.

If the husband puts GOD FIRST: He will love the Lord his God with all his heart, mind, soul and strength. He will love his neighbour as himself. He will love his WIFE like Jesus loved the church – by dying for her, giving everything for her!

If the wife puts GOD FIRST: She will also love the Lord her God with all her heart, mind, soul and strength. She will respect her husband and choose loving submission rather than nagging and strife.

This is not only true for married people.
Yes, God LOVES marriage – but that does not mean being single is second best and you should hope to one day be “promoted” to married. (If you’re interested in this topic I recommend the book “The single issue” by Albert Y. Hsu)

The single person who puts GOD FIRST: Will also love the Lord his God with all his heart, mind soul and strength. He will love his neighbour as himself. And therefore love, respect and serve the people God has put in his life with that same heart of love that God has – because in seeking God first, you begin to discover God’s heart and your heart becomes more like his heart.

God is faithful. God’s love is pure.
God’s love is truth and hope and light and peace and joy that overflows to transform not only your own life, but those around you.
God is waiting at the altar – like an expectant bridegroom – eagerly awaiting his bride!
He is so proud, so happy, so thrilled to see YOU walk towards him!
The king is enthralled by your beauty!
Will you say ‘I do’?

Unfaithful love

One of my favourite books of the Bible, even as a child, was Hosea.
I was fascinated by this story of a man who was told to marry a prostitute and to care for her and love her despite her unfaithfulness. Even when she ran away from him and back to her old life and old lovers, he went after her and brought her back again. Relentless love.

God compares this situation to his relationship with his people, Israel. He shows them love and fights for their freedom, while they betray him again and again by ignoring his commands and following other gods. But God does not give up on them and keeps speaking to them through prophets and then through his son, Jesus. God becomes man in Jesus to reveal his love and to die on the cross for all the sins of the world, to make reconciliation and life with God possible.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve known God for quite a long time and yet again and again I still do exactly the same thing as Hosea’s wife or Israel. I am unfaithful.

I even love telling other people about God and how Jesus changed my life – and yet sometimes I am doing exactly the opposite of what God wants me to, or ignoring him or doubting everything I always believed in. Like a married person encouraging young people to believe in and honour marriage, while at the same time thinking of committing adultery.

How can that be?
How can I be so unfaithful to someone I love so much?
Because love is a decision and love is a verb and growing in love is a process.
God is love and he will never be untrue to his character.
Just like God is truth and justice.
But me? I still have a heart full of rebellion that is slowly being transformed by God.

Don’t get me wrong, I fully believe that Jesus died on the cross for every one of my sins and that I am a new person in Jesus – I am made righteous and justified before God and free from the slavery of sin. But the process of allowing God to really transform my heart and my life and becoming more like Jesus is going to take until I die. That is why love is a decision. I made the decision to accept what Jesus did for me on the cross, but that’s not something I just cross off my list and forget about. Every day I have to decide to let my love for Jesus determine my thoughts and actions. Just like when you’re married and its not just about the wedding day vows – every day you get up and decide to act in love and be patient with each other. To love when the other person does things that annoy you or when you don’t agree on something. Whether its something trivial, but daily, like the right way to put away clothes (in the cupboard, on the floor…) or a big decision that could affect where you move as a family (honey, how do you feel about moving to Mexico or Japan?). And that’s what makes love a verb. That decision of how you act and how you react. I can say “I love you”, but someone wont believe me if my actions don’t back up that statement. If I am not kind or show interest in a person, make an effort to spend time with them and am patient with their shortcomings. In the same way if someone claims to love me, but never does anything to show that he truly cares for me – that makes the words seem pretty meaningless.

With my love for God, I can also express that love through action. Its not about doing good works to get brownie points in heaven – its about expressing my love for God by showing trust and obedience in what I do. I read his word, the Bible and let it guide me. I talk to God and ask him for wisdom. I look at how Jesus lived and strive to follow his example – loving and serving other people and teaching them about God. Some days I really feel like doing these things, because I feel that I’m in love with Jesus and it just comes naturally to me to do what is on his heart. Other days maybe less or not at all. But again, just like in any relationship – you don’t just walk out the door when you don’t feel those butterflies or you’re having a bad day. That would be ridiculous. You keep trusting and keep acting in love, no matter what you feel. And you go through ups and downs that actually end up making both your love and your trust grow stronger.

And the most amazing part of it all is that God is never unfaithful.
In a love relationship between two people, both parties make mistakes and have to forgive each other and show grace, be patient, give each other second chances. With God, He never fails me. I may not always understand him (happens a lot) or understand why something happened (that happens quite often too) I might get frustrated by things I pray for not happening immediately (also happened) but he never fails me and his love never changes.
And despite my many failures, he always forgives me. Just like with Hosea and his wife – when I go off track, God calls me back. He doesn’t like the stuff I do wrong, but his love is greater than all my mistakes.

And that’s what makes me want to go back to him always. To say I’m sorry and to ask him to change my heart. I want to be more like him. I want to be faithful and love unconditionally.
Got a ways to go yet!

Jesus is King

This was the topic of the “Pfingstjugendkonferenz” I went to last weekend. A Christian conference where almost 3000 teens came together to hear about God and have fun and fellowship together. Good music, good sermons, workshops, games and the craziness of sleeping on the floor in a gym or classroom, taking cold showers and hanging out with a whole bunch of people for three days. I loved it.

Why? Because I loved being staff and getting to talk to the teens about Jesus and about what God is doing in their lives, in Germany and in other parts of the world. I loved hearing their questions and seeing their desire to grow, to know more about God and to really let him be King in their lives.

I think one of my favourite moments was asking five teenage girls what they had learned, what had touched them, what message they would take home with them. They just offered goofy replies and didn’t seem to take the question seriously. But then one of them wrote me on whatsapp later on, sharing what had impacted her. What it means to her, that Jesus is King.

I promised to do the homework too, so what does it mean to me?

Jesus being King means that he won the victory over sin and death and over the devil, the prince of lies that is in this world only to kill, steal and destroy.
Jesus being King means that if I recognise him as King over my life and submit to his authority, I am free from the sin that enslaved me before. Jesus died on the cross to pay for my sin. By accepting him, my debt is paid and I am free.
Jesus being King means that I am on the side of victory: if God is for me, who can be against me? I need not fear man or death or shame or judgement. Only the opinion of my King matters. If people laugh at me, that’s ok. People can take my earthly crown and crush it – but my worth does not lie in their words or actions but instead is defined by the crown of thorns that Jesus wore when he went to the cross!
Jesus being King means that in everything I do I want to honour him as King, even little things.
Jesus being King means that I want to know him, know his heart, so I can be an ambassador who represents him faithfully.
Jesus being King means that one day he will return to be united with all those that accepted his kingship and to judge those that rejected him and put an end to all evil, hurt and suffering.
Jesus being King means there will be a time of peace and joy when his kingdom is fully established – and in knowing him and letting him be King over my life, I can already begin to experience that today.

The challenge now is to really be loyal to my King in every day life and to honour him.
To remember that I’m serving him and not myself.
So what does that look like? What are the consequences of Jesus being King over my life?
I feel it is best described in a story.

There was a mighty Prince that came into a dark land that was being controlled by an evil ruler. The ruler was full of greed and cruelty and did not let pass an opportunity to make his subjects suffer. Additionally, he did everything in his power to make his subjects resemble him in every way. He encouraged them to be slanderous, unfaithful, selfish, wrathful, violent, impatient and deceitful. Everyone was suspicious of his neighbour and worked to his own advantage. The evil ruler would occasionally kill one of his subjects for his own amusement, but mostly he just watched them destroy each other and found it entertaining to see how all tried to excel in and perfect the vices so harmful to them and to their relationships.

Then the Prince came and defeated the evil ruler. He became King over the land, but there was still much chaos. A decree was made that the evil ruler and all those loyal to him would be exiled at a certain time. The King wanted to wait and give all those who were willing to accept him as their King the opportunity to do so. He found a handful of men in the city that were willing to trust him and accept him as their King. He taught them that his kingdom was different from the old rule. He taught them that instead of living in deceit and selfishness, they should love one another and be generous. He taught them that they should not always seek their own advantage but fight for the cause of the oppressed. He taught them that they should be faithful in serving their King even in seemingly insignificant tasks that would bring them no recognition. He taught them that the attitude of their heart mattered more than their strength and abilities.

And then, when they had come to know this new way of governing and understood their King’s heart, he sent them out throughout the land to let people know that the evil ruler had been defeated and to encourage them to submit to the King. He sent them out as ambassadors to represent him and to rebuke those living in opposition to the kingdom, to encourage the disheartened and to help those that had been wounded. And it was his desire that all should come to him and leave behind the way they lived before and become part of his kingdom. That way, when the time came for the evil ruler and his followers to be exiled, those followers might be few! And many might come to know the beauty of a reign of peace under a King that governs in love and righteousness.

What is the consequence of Jesus being King over my life?
I want to serve him like one of those ambassadors serving their King, by representing him in my life and going throughout the land to let people know that they do not need to continue to live enslaved by what Jesus has defeated!
I want to invite people to know the King personally and be changed by his amazing love and grace!
I want to be a demonstration of that love and grace and, with God’s help, serve and love other people.
I want to invite people to accept that Jesus not only died for their sins on the cross and paid the price for the sin that made them enemies of God – but that he also rose again, defeating sin and death and making him King and Lord.

One day Jesus will return and everyone will be judged.
When I stand before God, I know I will be accepted – because I chose to accept Jesus as King over my life.
Those that refused Jesus as King and remained under the rule of the enemy will face exile: an eternity in hell.
Jesus does not want anyone to be lost in exile.
He wants everyone to know him and find peace and life in him.
And he’s given me and all other people that have already decided to accept him as King the task of expanding his kingdom and telling other people about him.
That’s why I keep talking about Jesus.
That’s why I want to show people what Jesus is like.
I’ve gotten to know him and he set me free and changed my life!

What about you? Whom do you serve?
Who is King over your life?

Identity in Jesus.

Have you ever felt like you’ve forgotten who you are?
Like you were all disoriented and maybe could remember your name…but weren’t really sure what that meant anymore?
The last couple months were a little bit like that for me.
I was going through a very stressful time.
because of studies, exams, difficult situations in relationships, a lot of questions and just a general inner turmoil of emotions.
it felt like a mixture between a crazy roller coaster ride…
and trying to find my way through a fog while feeling sort of dizzy.

But I didn’t stay lost.
Thank God!
It was like…a time out, I suppose.
I am actually thankful for the time and feel it was so valuable to
really push the brakes and slow down a bit to get reoriented!
But these last couple weeks God reminded me
through so many truths of his word, the Bible
and through encouraging and challenging messages
that my identity
is in HIM.
And that if I remain close to HIS HEART
NOTHING can shake me.
Because HE’s got me.
And if I TOTALLY entrust myself, my life, my time,
my resources and dreams to him
HE will do something in and through me more powerful
than I can imagine.
I might not see it, or only in part,
but it is so real and so wonderful.

If you would also say that you have a personal
relationship with Jesus
that you are a child of God because you accepted Jesus
as your saviour,
then I also want to encourage you to find your identity in Jesus.
And know that
You are loved. Chosen. Empowered. By the blood of Christ!
For a purpose.
To KNOW HIM. To LOVE him. To WORSHIP him.
To give your life to HIM.
To glorify HIM.
To have an ever deeper and more intimate relationship with HIM.
First and foremost.

And THROUGH THAT.
HE will use you.
As a channel.
As a tool.
To further HIS kingdom here on earth.
His kingdom of peace, joy and righteousness in the Holy Spirit.
But that will come as a NATURAL outpouring of HIS heart in you.
As you seek HIS face.
HE will shine in your face.
So let HIM shine.

Jesus said:
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.”
John 15,1-17 from the NIV Bible

What if he never comes? OR: Set an example.

Here’s a topic for my girlfriends out there.
Maybe this doesn’t apply to you, maybe it does.
Just a hint – its about guys and waiting for “the right one”.

Now I’m twenty-five years old and the only date (besides high school formal) I’ve ever been on was with one of my best friends as a kid to watch Mulan in the cinema and eat a burger at McDonalds afterwards. His mom took us =)
It was fun and I sure liked him a lot – though I had already decided not to marry him. He was planning on becoming an attorney and I found that rather dull. Don’t ask me why. The firm opinion of an eight-year old. If I had known that women tend to make lists to summarize the vital qualities any possible future-husband must possess, I guess “no attorney” would have been on mine. Along with “must like animals” and “better know how to climb trees”.

What about now? Growing up with strong Christian values and having long embraced those values and the Christian faith as my own, I find myself living in stark contrast to the values and practices of the society I live in. It seems to me that when it comes to relationships, the top two priorities in society are “open, fun, flirtatious”, and “ready for fun here and now with no thoughts about tomorrow”. Marriage? Maybe after we’ve lived together for like…three years. Or better seven. Just so we can find out if we’re really compatible.

With the education system in various German states contemplating a serious change to puberty education – or whatever you want to call it – I wonder how much that will affect society even further and force kids to skip the even now hardly innocent childhood and be confronted with questions concerning the opposite gender (can I even say that?) at an ever earlier age. I am sad because the kids don’t even have a choice. Knowledge is hard to undo. Will handing out contraceptives and encouraging them to act on their emotions and impulses really teach them to be responsible adults that can build strong, healthy relationships? Will introducing them to the variety of lifestyles that exist among adults in the 21st century really help them find their place and not unnecessarily confuse them and make them insecure with a lack of guidance and role models? Will it really just encourage tolerance and broaden their world view without adding to the issues of identity and self-perception they already struggle with during their teenage years?

Now what do these questions have to do with us girls and relationships?

Well, sometimes I’ve talked to other single girls or young women and I’ve felt that, especially in Christian circles, there can be a lot of frustration at times with single life and the seeming scarcity of eligible men. Sometimes it can be rather tempting to just go for the option society offers us – instead of waiting for a man who loves God and reflects Jesus in his character, life and goals. A man who will love us like Jesus loved the church. Whoa – high standard there! Will he ever come? Considering only one’s own life it can sometimes seem so insignificant a compromise – so what if I go out with some random guy just for fun. Everyone does it. Big deal. I would still go to church. I don’t think he’d mind. And maybe he would even come with me!

But its not so much just about whether or not you go to church – its about your heart.
Who does it belong to? Jesus – or that guy?

And then if you look at the big picture – of what kids growing up these days learn as “the norm”, your example of going against the current is actually not so insignificant. It can serve as a real encouragement and challenge to other people, especially kids looking for an alternative to the crazy instant gratification quick fix culture of our time. The best things in life are worth fighting for. Worth going through tough times for. Worth not giving up for. And I would say that an awesome marriage is a pretty good thing. Let’s not kid ourselves, we all make mistakes. And in the end – even if we do marry that man of integrity that loves and serves God with his whole heart – he is still a sinner in need of God’s grace. Just like us. But if we recognize that and deliberately strive for a relationship that is full of grace, humility, forgiveness and selfless, sacrificial love, with God’s help we will have an amazing marriage that shapes us and changes us for the better as we grow in love and trust. And along with us, it can shape people around us. Can show friends or neighbours that healthy families do still exist and are worth fighting for.

Ok, so you’re single and there’s no eligible man in sight?
Relax. Try widening your social circle a little, but don’t get fanatic. Be open to getting to know guys and don’t forget they’re all human, not superhero-knights-in-shining-armour-ever-ready-to-sweep-you-off-your-feet. And a random “hi how are you” or a cup of coffee does not mean he’s gonna propose next week so again, relax a bit. Take off the pressure.

Just keep being faithful in whatever you’re doing and start praying for that husband of yours, that God would prepare you both for each other and allow you to meet.

What are your thoughts and ideas on this topic?
Feel free to comment.

Like children

I love the passage in the Bible where Jesus tells his disciples off for hindering the kids that want to come to him. I love how he says that we all have to be like children to enter the kingdom of heaven. But what does he mean by that?

I think I got a glimpse of it while hearing four young girls bombard my friend with questions about the Bible, God, heaven and many other things…

Will the city in heaven have walls and gates?
What will heaven look like?
Did John really get to see God?
Why does the book of Revelation talk about a lamb?
Look here, why is there a bad word in the Bible?
Where does God live?

I was overwhelmed and overjoyed at the same time! One question barely answered and another one arises! Little eager faces searching the Bible and asking about everything they find, curious to know more about God and understand what his word means. It made me want to know more answers. And it made me want to have more questions! When did I stop asking questions like them? With such a childlike desire to get to know my Father in heaven and to discover all I can about him and me and life – by studying his word.
Since when have I been so caught up in supposedly doing things for God that I forget to just delight in him and to get so excited about what I find in the Bible that I forget its time for bed.

I want to be more like a child
and be excited to spend time with my daddy
and trust in all my daddy says and does
and ask a million questions
but also accept his gentle “just because”
and say to myself like one of those girls said to me:

When I go to heaven I want to ask God if I can draw a picture in the clouds…